Is raining cats and dogs outside, I am sitting down crossed legged listening to the music of nature. It is a day that I felt I was on an extreme slow pace compared to others. Sitting down at Secret Recipe alone and watching how the cars speeding and passing back. Everyone in the restaurant was busy chit chatting with their friends except me.  I couldn’t stop looking at my mobile phone hoping someone would give me a ring and talk to me while I am seeping my Darjeeling Tea slower than normal.

Fifteen minutes passed, for the very first time I felt that life had been truly empty. Have I been walking on an insignificant journey all these while? I laid my head down on the table and started pondering what love is all about? Have I been too selfish to myself that I had ignored people around? There again, I tried so hard to recall how is it to feel like to be truly in love?

I couldn’t answer myself after all these years. I am not too sure if love can be measured by intimacy? Or simply by saying I love you daily. The last time I checked, it wasn’t that commercial but I remember I felt secure and being understood.

“Is it because of the past, I had become so defensive towards a relationship?” or is it because I am putting more and more expectation on myself that I am living in my ideal world in my wildest dream? Or is it because is hard to have a mutual understanding relationship nowadays?

The ugly truths are:

1)      Girls have their moment of attention seeking while guys find it irritating.

2)      Girls think intimacy comes after the relationship meets a level of understand while guys think it comes in a package.

3)      Girls rather spend some time to call and talk even when they don’t meet their loved one while guys think if you want to be in a relationship you have to meet up.

4)      Girls can multitask better as we can deal few things at one go while guys can’t; when they are busy working, leave them alone.

I am just feeling upset and I am not too sure where I am heading to. Yeap, I think a lot, because that’s what a thinker too. At least, I picked up something from here.

Here’s my schedule

21^st of Oct-

Studied up to 2am, finalizing my slides, woke up at 5.30am, reached uni at 7.30am and class at 10am. Work out section at 2pm and not forgetting my Sales Training Speech at 7.30pm.

22^nd of Oct-

Meeting my new boss and gang (National Youth Consultative Council) at the Hotel Marriot, Putrajaya from 9.30am-11.00pm.

23^rd of Oct-25^th of Oct

Gather at McD ss2 with Shan and head up to Genting Convention. Followed on with many sections that requires me to listen attentively. Would bring my homework to do as well.

26^th of Oct-

Finance replacement test and finished up my Accounting Assignment 2.

27^th of Oct-

Toasties’ EXCO meeting, Accounting replacement test, Leadership Quiz.

28^th of Oct-

Attending the “How does leader build values in an organization”-Harvard Business School at Hotel Equatorial. Study Mid Term exam.

29^th of Oct-

Mid Term and finished up my finance Assignment 2.

30^th of Oct-

Accounting Test, Finance Assignment due and Taylor’s demo meeting.

31^st of Oct-

Asean IBYE Concert first briefing and 1^st draft to be out. The launching of the tickets.

and the list goes on......

The last thing I want to hear right now is an inspirational talk or a motivational talk. Honestly, I am seriously thinking that I may be overally motivated as you can see above. All I needed was some comfort and laughter. *my Genie said your wish is my command*

He gave me a *2.30 hours of conference call and music sharing with the Bear family and emo section with my VPE* People, I am feeling better. Thanks Rishi for reminded me that this point of time I needed one simple thing which is SELF-LOVE!

I am seriously looking forward to the year end trip right now. We can sleep, eat, swim, walk and  talk and talk and talk till we dropped.

I am turning to 21st in a month++ time!

I had never been a big fan of party nor birthday celebration. But this year is a truely an exceptional one.

My parents are throwing me a party and they somehow got me excited about my birthday.

A true Classic Joke

Dad: Lou Poh, what are you getting for your daughter for her birthday?

Mom: Nothing, 21 years ago. I had given her the best gift of all by delivering her and giving her LIFE.

Dad: Excuse me; I also play a role in that k.

Mom: Were you the one staying in hospital? Were you the one going through the labor?

Dad: -.-

The on-going preparation

Guest list and activities. 

Truely blessed with all the effort from everyone to make this happen!

:: My first birthday gift from my two beloved babe Foong Easter and Apryl Chen ::

All the way from Melbourne, no wonder they say good friends are like panties.

So close to our private life don't you argee!